But we have this picture in our minds about how life is supposed to happen for us. The scripture that reads, “Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it.” (Proverbs 22:6) is a part and parcel of this concept of life. We have assumptions that we make and when our little worlds are changed no matter the fashion, we get cranky.
We stop moving. We wonder what it is that happened. It couldn’t have been us, could it? Or we come to a conclusion that it was us, and we point to the wrong identifiers.
And I stand here looking heavenward, arms open wide, and shake my head. “OK, God. Whatever. Whatever You want. Whatever You say. Whatever happens for Your glory. Just point me in the right direction.”
I think, after over three years, I am finally getting re-situated. I wonder at the depth of emotion I must have had for my late husband. Is that why I am just now coming out of the fog?
Amazingly, I attended a workshop about trauma and grief, and I wanted to impart some of that information to anyone who may be struggling with a loss. It is not about the grieving process - our losses, that is. It is about the trauma, whether it was a sudden death or an anticipated death, or simply a change-in-life direction. Trauma comes when our assumptions of life change. We all have to face these adjustments.
I’ve thought several times, “OK, this is where I am and where I will be forever and ever, Amen,” only to find out that we are not going there or staying there. Our ability to adjust to the changes, then, depends on how we are able to cope going into a situation.
That is where the mistaken impression that I am such a strong person comes from. I’ve come to realize that the only certainty in life is uncertainty. People are afraid of change and yet it is happening all around us. And further, the only chance we have in this life is to shore ourselves up for what is to come.
My greatest peace, my help, and my hope all come from my faith in God. He is the One who created all. It is not for me to question anything He has done in my regard or anyone else’s.
Take a gander at the book of Job or begin in the 38th chapter: “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me if you have understanding.” (fourth verse).
God, forgive me for making assumptions about what my life is to be. Help me to face the changes that come with life in general, and let me show more of You in everything I say and do. Thank You for Your love and mercy.