Catching up with longtime friends, I spoke of my fascination with another state which sparked a lot of conversation. It seems their child was living there and she would connect me with her son on my next visit.
Perhaps he could even find someone to be my tour guide while I was there. She asked about my interest in the state and I couldn’t give her a definite answer. It’s like the times I’d ridden past a place of business for years, glancing at it and tossing it to the back of my mind with a quiet curiosity of the goings on within the grounds.
I felt a similar tug years ago when I’d reached a crossroads in my life about which direction I needed to go and it led me here. It was a bit of a rough start, but I have found home, a sense of belonging in my own little world, and a purpose however limited that might be in its sphere.
The tugging started for me about two years ago. It led me to Europe to visit with my brother and, while I always enjoy time with him, it did not settle the pull although it did help to center me. I took a short jaunt this past summer - without my children - and while it was nice to get away then, I was frustrated that I couldn’t do more in the way of exploration.
Life, in general, is a journey for each of us. Finding our way can be difficult at times, especially when we are thrown a curve by the unexpected. We think we have it mapped out before us and then “life happens” and we have to adjust, re-arrange, turn around, re-configure and move either in a slightly different direction or utilize our completely revamped itinerary.
While I’d previously thought my life was mapped out before me and was settling in for a “long life’s nap” to (alter a Christmas story) circumstances have changed that for me. My friends, upon hearing my plans, weren’t surprised at all.
“You are strong.” “I can absolutely see you doing something like that.” “You have that spirit.”
Wow! And I’d been feeling rather moody, whiny and complaining lately and bent on getting my house in order! You know, the holidays and company coming it has to be cleaned. They had no idea! Ah, no matter. I just have the calm assurance that no matter where I am or what I am doing that God is with me. I seek to live within His tenets for my life and I don’t always succeed, but I turn back to Him, listening for what He has to say for my life.
In the coming season of hope, I can’t help but think of two of my favorite songs - one by Casting Crowns (“God With Us”) and “O Holy Night.” And I think that everything reverts back to the scripture so often quoted, “For God so loved the world ...” (John 3:16), and all He has done, currently does, and will do in the future is because He “so loves us,” wherever that may take us.
May God be with you and bless you on your path.